Mama Loves Baby

We listen to Yo Gabba Gabba cds in the car.  A lot.  And we don't mind because it is among some of the only children's music that my husband and I enjoy as much as E.  With bands like Hot Hot Heat and and The Roots singing about things you have to talk to your kids about anyway, it's catchy.

So the songs get stuck in your head and we often find ourselves singing them as we wake up in the morning and go to bed at night.

One of these songs is by Solange Knowles (yes, Beyonce's sister).  See video:  Mama Loves Baby

When I saw this on the show, I was a bit creeped out by her eye makeup, but it quickly grew on me and I started singing it to E.

The day that we went to the ultrasound where we found all the problems with V, we were driving home with E in the car and we had just told her she was going to have a sister.  All the "markers" they had seen at the ultrasound were slowly adding up in my head and then the song came on.  I started crying and my husband asked if it was because of the song and I said yes.  I was thinking about all the things that I may not be able to do with V that I had done with E.  That "Mama's Love" wasn't going to be enough this time.

But then, as the months of the pregnancy ticked away, the song started to comfort me.  I would rub V in my belly when it came on in the car, telling her that she would "never be alone."

It was one of the songs I sang to V during the 2.5 days she was with us.  I loved it.  "Together we are one.  Together we are one.  Mama has warm love hotter than the sun."  And I knew when she was born and she could hear (when we thought that she might have been deaf) that she was definitely listening to me sing and listening to my heart as the song promised.

She was never alone.  When I hear the song in the car now, I think about how it evolved with us and how much you are capable of when you don't even realize it.